and then...vacant

Ending our suffering is more important than figuring out the reason of the suffering but gosh, aren't we obsessed with that? Trying to understand why someone hurts us, or someone else. 

Goodness lies in transformation, evil lies in mimickry. And anyway, there's a new Chipotle near my house; my life just got ten times better. Kish-Mish, my feline, is still growing. He's got a monstrous frame. Yesterday I spent $25 on a box for him to poop in. 

I have twenty days to finish the magnum opus. I am almost halfway finished. We'll see about how it goes. You can expect these posts to get shorter for awhile. I'd like to give the time to sleep and meals. Which means I'm needed to go now. 

Also, interior decorating. I'm obsessed. I hope I get to build-a-home. And thank you for reading my words!

and then...apology

I'm sorry! It's so late, but Tuesday, it's a Tuesday and that's the new updating day.

I'm not sure if I mentioned this before, but I have been doing more art journaling with one of my housemates. It's such a lovely activity! I don't know what to blog about O.o

I won a poetry slam! 3rd place and fifty dollars, with my original piece that equates males to betta fish, ehehehehehe AlphaMaleBetaFish!

What to blog about...how about my lovely Beta Muse, my Alan Cope? A love letter.

Dear Beta Muse,

I love you very, very much. You are precious to me. You have been working so hard to make my dreams come true...especially when I was unaware of it. And I apologize for ever being unaware, and every being unaware, and I hope that we can have new friends soon! I'm in love love with you, thanks for letting me write my story book all about you! You are super super cool :3

hearts,

Ayah

hooray! playplayplay!

back to writing and caring for Fish and film class and the other things.

and then...release

without catharsis. 

I have a new journal without a name and I ran out of black pens so now I write with blue.  This entry was meant for this morning but I was trying to catch up on studying film for my film class. What Beta Muse and I get to watch Citizen Kane in 30 minutes. What we have to, what time I have to stop writing this entry. 

I'm out of love. Not what ran out of it, but it's in my pocket. And thinking so much about foxes, lately! Foxes and antlers; I read that fettishes are defenses against a tragic loss. Well, Antlers. Well, vulpine. What, I lost both boys. And now I'm obsessed with Antlers and Foxes. 

But I've loved those things for so long! Drinking tea from a travel mug is a new affair. you've got less of a way of knowing the temperature, and can't suck on air sipping so, it's not as relaxing. But it's still tea, like. By the way, don't you want to smack people my age? ungrateful brats. You're holding an apple, CHEER THE HECK UP!!

Oh, apples! All the fruits! And this pretty coral drawing on the cover of my macbook, called a decal. now I can tell my computer apart from the others. 

What am I excited about? Thing? I like my backpack. Mostly I'm excited about all the things in Cope Syndrome. Like the animals. 

Also I'm learning so much about film, I love it love it. I want to make movies, too. There's a real fance camera I want that's the cost of a house. It's the cheapest of its kind :) 

you don't need a fancy anything, though, if you know what you're doing. I want a new sweater. And what, bags and candles and jewelery. the thing is that indepedent women are practical and we don't indulge in whims. So I'd like a man, please, so that he may cater to my whims on my behalf. That way I can be practical AND have lots of jewelery! weeeeee

I haven't given any sort of writing advice in a century and a half. The most important thing is simplicity; WITH APPRECIATION. Hello, this is my pen, here's what he can do. Be a child and write, learn the craft and write, forget the craft and write like a child. That's the secret to genius and happiness, simultaneous

ladies and gents, address, thank you for thoughts. 

go to society6.com for pretty things.