and then...hunger

I was ill, and then my Macbook was in for refurbishing, and now I'm fasting for Ramadan. And that is why I'm writing this so late; I am being nocturnal and working on the novel. 

I taught last week about setting... I have to work so hard for setting. The blocking, the duality of it. But it can make or break a story. When I heard Arthur Levine speak at LeakyCon 2011, he spoke about hunger, and how he was inspired by hunger in the Harry Potter books. As I'm fasting, it's quite on my mind right now. Hunger can drive a story so well. It can drive a story just the way desire can, and any writer knows how to use that. Two years ago one of my characters was locked in a shed and starving for days. I wrote about it, of course, because that's my job. Through his hunger I realized a more stylistic tone of voice, but I also realized something more important.

There is a reason why excellent writers don't always meet their potential. Strong writers love their characters and what they represent. It's difficult to put someone you love through the kind of suffering and conflict that a worthy story demands. It's nearly impossible, in fact. It's certainly not the only contradiction of the writing process; chronology alone can drive a writer to tears. But I haven't written a story since that didn't make me reach that fork in the road: I have to choose whether to do the best or the easiest thing for a character. I've never written about a boy who didn't want to be a man by the end of his story, and sometimes suffering is the best path to preserving innocence. So I let him starve in the shed. 

The Outsiders illustrates this with aching accuracy. I met the author by chance while visiting a university, but that's a story for another time.

Stay gold, everyone, and thanks for reading. 

and then...jacket hood

I just got back from LeakyCon 2011, and I had a magical time. The staff was certainly not prepared for 3, 500 attendees; the registration lines were an absolute disaster. But it was truly a spiritual experience to be with people from all over the world to celebrate the inspiration we all found in a young man who never let us down. 

And the yearning I felt about the story, which once made it so real, has finally transformed into conviction. A story as great as Harry Potter is simultaneously inspiring and discouraging to a writer. But I have found myself in Potter and now the image is so quintessential that I trust my story completely. I have found myself in burning eyes. I experienced, as John Granger explained in his stunning lectures at the conference, a Resolution of Contraries. I write from a jacket hood with strings attached.

When Harry asks his mother if she will stay close to him, she says always. And I believe Harry will always stay close to us. Like Esther Earl's memory, Harry can continue to inspire us all. Just because he's in our head does not make him any less real, in fact, it does the opposite. So I'd like to remind my fellow LeakyCon attendees and Harry Potter fans:

This star won't go out.