I love stories so much that they scare me a little. I double majored in Creative Writing and Filmmaking at the Kansas City Art Institute, and I'm passionate about this thing called metafiction. My dream is to write metafictive scripts and novels full time by the age of 34.
I grew up reading hundreds of books and filling a dozen notebooks a year with ideas and observations. I wrote thousands of stories, most of them terrible and all of them character driven. It felt less like invention and more like observation of an inner imaginative experience, and the longer I watched my characters, the more they started to look back at me. Combining this experience with filmmaking is where my obsession with metafiction really took off.
As a life-long student of the narrative arts, I make things concrete. I love to personify abstract concepts because interacting with a problem is the best way for me to solve it.
While it may seem esoteric from the outside, metafiction is igniting the human connection to the things that we make. Never has this been more relevant than in the coming decade: a time, as we all know, when interfacing is key. I believe that every idea has a voice, and its up to storytellers to help translate those voices; not only through inspiration and feeling, but through the discipline of an organized mind. I love inspiring people one-on-one to get them engaged with their role and responsibilities, as well as lead by example through my own participation.
This site, though several years old, is still just just the beginning of what I hope will be a pervasive phenomenon. So although you can look around and see more of my work, I also use it to share what I'm learning about metafiction, and resources that you can use to make your own films and novels.
/ ARTIST STATEMENT
To understand things that are outside of the senses by means of the senses, Ayah Abdul-Rauf makes abstract ideas concrete in metaphorical storytelling. Accessible metaphors and metafictive devices are especially important to her work in this respect. Stories, for Ayah, are investigations of consciousness, presenting characters as the wounds in ourselves who are seeking compassion, interest, attention and resolution. She strengthens their voices by acknowledging them (and herself) as created beings.
The solidarity present between Ayah and her own characters takes root in the awareness of being created by a singular divine presence. It stands to reason, then, that characters are aware of being fictional and created, and they are aware of you being real and created. At times they are even aware of the medium of their own story.
This belief about characters puts Ayah in the unique position of bringing the unreal into the real by sharing journals, films, novels and other artifacts of their experience. These stories are for and about sensitive and intuitive people who want healing, who are curious about the unknown, who tremble like prey animals from the intensity of being created. Ayah wants to invite you into this same awareness, so that you can connect with the mysteries of your own imagination.